The Scotland Yarn

To be continued...

2008-01-25T14:48:56Z

I'm transforming this into something I can use while I'm in Scotland studying abroad next fall.
I'm going to be gone from August until December 2008. I'll be working on my honor thesis and hopefully finishing my novel during that time as well.

So until then sleep my little live-journal-- I shall awake you in the fall!

Candide-style The weekend before Thanksgiving-break and what happened to Ashley there and after

2005-11-21T23:37:00Z

For all my older buddies in college around the nation-- I miss you all and I wish you could be here for all the amazing things. But I know all of you are having equally awesome experiences and I hope over summer we can all catch back up. I love you all!

Ah, life. I love college-- I'm in this mode, i think the only word to describe it is "Chill." Its not a lack of motivation by no means. I'm motivated and on top of things. I have come to this inner peace of understanding with myself. I love learning here. Everyday I ask o many questions, not merely in class, but of my friends as well. I question and listen and develope ideas. Open-mindedness is the key to so many doors! I have a whole new world veiw. I'm at the point in life where the main character has this lose of innocence but then come to a greater understanding of themselves and life. I see God, myself, others, the world, in an entirely different light then a little less then 4 months ago.
It's not all laid back, I go through phases of stress, but stress doesn't seem to have an affect on me lately, i dont worry as much, I don't feel lost as much. I feel happy.
Like i'm where God wants me to be.

I keep having this battles inside over my religious beliefs. I love and fear God -- that wont ever change. But now I see how much Juedism, Christianity, and Islam are all tied so closely together. and the more I mawl it over the more I realize how SELFISH it would be for ONE religion praising God to think they are ONLY right. I mean who am to say God can only reach humans in one way -- i.e. through Christ. How do we not see that God could be using Moses, Jesus, Mohammed all to reach different people. He made us different for a reason. I just think it is very narrow-minded to believe there is only ONE way to be touched by God. Allah, Jaweh, God-- they are all three the same being... and if he loves us enough to send his son (in the christian side) then why wouldnt he send others like mohammed-- all three of these religions have been twisted so much by the people who practice them, most people are missing the point completly.

but that just me and my new college phylisophical mind set.

ashree @ 2005-11-11T09:51:00

2005-11-11T15:18:34Z

AHHHHHHH!
...life in a nut shell;
band is done! w00t! I will miss hangingout with my band buddies-- but i dont think that'll be an issue. They remind me of friends from home. haha. I'm really lucky. Throwing marching shoes in an open field...flipping eachother...playing spider-man in the hall...haha
Oh man yesterday me, chris, and jr after SWE decided we NEEDED some skyline. (us cincinatians....you know how it is;D) We got Kev to drive us to the skyline up the street in kettering...it was sooooooo good. JR filled an entire cracker full of hotsauce...beyond the point of normal amounts of hotsauce-- I thought he was gonna start crying. haha I feel bad cause we kinda beat kev's car up...to much weight. what can I say, I've gained a freshman 30 (jk ;))

school is fine. I'm always studying-- so it feels like i should be doing freakin awesome! but pretty much i'm doing as well as I did in highschool. Which is cool with me. I'm enjoying class and not stressing to much. perfect mix.

Kev got his co-op for second semester!!!!! YAY!!! I'm so proud of him

I'll be home late tuesday, I think. For thanksgiving. good stuff. lots of food. and time off. hopefully i'll catch up with kids from home. DB, megz, laurel, i've alreayd talked to them-- i'm diffinatly finding them one time over the break.

well I have to go to breakfast now-- mmmmm my favorite part of the day, FOOD!

ashree @ 2005-11-06T20:31:00

2005-11-07T01:34:22Z

This time in the year....

2001:
I rememberd my pass word!!!! YES! ok
I have not updated in a while soo...HI I missed you all : hug : *Tear*
today was ok I went to the nurses my first time at anderson she is nice the nurse that is. she let me sleep through math Yeppi! I felt better but then during science my stomach REALY hurt and I almost screamed but I contained my self. Its starting to do it again -.- it hurts!!! I practiced for tryouts! I'm so excited! I hope I do good >.< stupid D.J. if it was just me and laurel we would be in like flin but no!!!! next year we will both diffenetly make it!!!! that will be fun! I can't wait to get the trumpet from tory I can't wait to start playin that old instrument. It'll be wierd.
nobody is online dangit! you alll left me! I cant believe you! hehe I hope I do good pray for me!!!!!!! well I already rambled on so good luck laurel and rob on tryouts! As for the rest of the gang we gotta do somthin saturday friday I have to babysit
-.- BYEEEEEE
LOVE YOU ROB

2002:
Stage Crew was...productive. Tale of Two cities is getting good. I love lucie she is so sweet! I wanna be like her! haha but then again people also find her really naive and unrealistic....SO!?
ya well anyway! nothin new, i'm still sad MB is over. -.-
i'm going to take voice lessons i think....i dont everyone keeps trying to talk me into it but i dont think you can get a good voices....my voice is just crappy i mean you can tell when i talk its to low and ......ashley-ish so i dont know.
Life has been really good. i have been busy after school everyday this week. i like having stuff to do.
i have started writing again haha random starting to storys when i get bored. there pretty goofy but i'm getting some cool beginings going.....not to good at developing plots yet but its only been a day now and somthin usally hits me after i just write random thoughts and poems and stuff.so if i ever get an actual plot going i'll post it or somthin haha..riiiiight
oh dear dad is giving me the "family" lecture cause me and carrie have been busy....he is giving it RIGHT now haha oops not i got yelled at cause i typed that......G2g!
LUV U

2003:

"At least i have an excuse for the voices in my head!"
that sums up my work on stage today!
people showed up (unlike tuesday where NO ONE SHOWED UP!) and we had enough so i could be on head set and ande to control the stage and the lights and sound had head sets.....well there were 7-8 people on head sets at a time constisting on megan (curtian) (sound- MikeThom Jesse Lights- Brain amanda george and sometimes Max.
Well we established the entire show with spots and sets so there was a lot of work actually being done but on our down time we established that; George "a gay pansy," Thom and jesse and "gerbils/gineau pigs," Amanda me and megs are the queens of head set, Mike is the doubleduce king, Brian...well, here goes "A Jewish money greed servant/love slave snoopy with flying goggles and a white silky scarf"...*Breathes after saying all in one breathe* and as for me well i'm just the half crazed, giddy, stage manager/slave owner that dances around on headset and entertains the headset kids with sexual inendoues, random kinky saying, and the random yelling of stage directions to my crew... on stage left!
I love crew. when all the stress is gone from being yelled at cause me and ande are runnning around trying to figure out what goes where....we have a lot of fun!
Mike- "Have you ever been in a turkish prison?"
Brian- "Have you ever seen a grown man naked?"
Ash-"Have you ever killed a man with your bare-hands?"
Thom and jesse- *geneua pig noises*
Megs- "could we stop that....?"
*random burp!*
Ash- "i'd give that a 5."
Brian- "It did suck didnt it?"

2004:
Ah, life.
I dont know what i updated on last.
I have a job! I already got my first paycheck! *80$* w00t!
making good money. work is so much fun. I love the people and the job keeps me busy. cleaning, serving food, playing with kids. its a good job :)
school-- eh. its school.
I was accepted to University of Dayton. And they want to put me in the Honors Program on inrollement. ^_^
Patty was looking there hahahahahaha that would be so freaking awesome. so not only qould i Have Kevin and Alio I would have patty-o too....that would be insanity! :D but you know thats a while away for patty so i'm not gonna get to excited *yet!*
I get to see kevin and ali tomorrow! I have a counsler meeting at 8:30 a.m. *i'm missing school haha* and me and my mom are gonna hangout around campus and have lunch with kevin. then i get to stay and spend the night there and then go home in the morning. its gonna be so much fun! :) I've missed kevin a lot lately-- i'm going on three weeks since the last time i got to see him :(
one of my managers has cancer and it may be terminal-- keep him in your prayers please.
ack i have the worst cold ever right now-- i've had it for like 2 weeks. IT STINKS!!
well i want breakfast and i have work at 11 so i'm over and out all.
love

2005:
...that now.....
life is good, college is fun, hard, wonderful, stressful, stressful, stressful and stressful!
not much to update on right now....see you later?

ashree @ 2005-10-30T18:39:00

2005-10-30T23:45:16Z

OH MY LORD!!!!!!!! THIS WEEKEND WAS COMPLETLY AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!
.....it would take up about 3 webpages of livejournal so.....just call as catch up with me-- like normal people!

The short version

We went to NC;
marching and performed music for about a total of 16 hours.....thats a lot in a 2 day period
Me, Mel, JR, Brian, and Chris (somtime peter, kev(not mine), and shelly) hung out for the past 3/4 days straight
I love them all very much
There is just something about pillow fighting, laughing your ass with someone untill 5:45 a.m. ,crashing for two hours all in the same bed and then getting up at 7 a.m. to get on the bus home that makes you very close with a group of people

what a wonderful weekend

ashree @ 2005-10-26T10:18:00

2005-10-26T14:26:30Z

wow-- lots to update and i only have 15 mins...SUPER SPEEDY VERSION....go

North Carolina: beautiful! The wedding rocked. Me and my mom had a lot of fun! My cousin Patrick was so handsom and his wife is th biggest sweetheart!!!
Parents weekend: hahaha....what a weekend.
Friday: POD performance went well, the jazz band kicked ass! I chilled with my buds up the hill. JR, Brian, Nick, and Melissa. I've been chilling with them a lot lately its good stuff :)
Saturday: FOOTBALL GAME.....a.k.a. me and JR sitting there keeping eachother sane from our band and its director.
Saturday night:....loooong story -- ask me later about my mom playing quaters
Sunday: The SWE performance :) it was awesome. we did very well. then out to dinner with my mom, dad, and g-pa

this week: stressful as ever. me and kev are stressing the shit out of eachother two....but we are geting better at not doing that. I'm ignoring most of my work-- lack of motivaion but this weekend I go to NC with the band buds...oh man an hour bus ride with JR, Brian, and mel. We arn't looking forward to marching but in the words of JR "hangingout, snuggling all together on a gym floor, and laser tag" I mean what more do you need!?

yep-- that was the past two weeks in a very, very small nutshell.

love!

After a long weekend...

2005-10-12T14:05:38Z

Well Midterm break was nice. Friday afternoon I spent over at Creek's house playing games and eating pot roast! :) Then I ran over to Mike's appartment where I found my Kev amoung the tipsy boys. We chilled there untill midnight or so and then went back to Kev's. We watched a couple shows and then went to bed.
Saturday was spent doing work and then going out for the night with Kev. I got back and wasnt feeling to great so I went to bed early.
The next morning I got picked up by my mom and spent the day at home with her and watching football after skyline.
Monday I found some money and got all the supplies I needed for school and took carrie some food up at school. I chilled with her untill she had the play. I love her :) I love my andy boy too. He was so cute :)
Tuesday I went to my mom school and then we headed back up to UD, where I cranked out my last paper for thursday and chilled with Liz :)

I leave thursday night for North Carolina with my mom. :):) We are going to a wedding. in the words of my mom "We are gonna party like to single women!".....haha, dont worry kev ;)

Well I have Psychology to go to now. I get my 2nd exam grade back today =D -- oddly enough I'm doing better in college then i did in highschool....strange

ashree @ 2005-10-05T13:21:00

2005-10-05T17:30:37Z

Life is good.

I got an 86% on my Core exam (thats the crazy bitch class) so I'm very happy with a B :)

Hopefully i'm gonna get somewhere around a 3.5 for the semsester :D Lets see, psy 101: A-freakin-+ , Band (3 classes): A (X's 3), German: on the edge...i think it'll be a B (If I get an A that'll be a very nive suprise), B in Core (probably, I might be able to pull off an A)

With 19 credit hours for my firs semester I think i'm doing pretty damn well.

Also I know what i'm double-majoring in. Religious Studies and Psychology double. saweet

I still love everyone here. My kev is being such a good boy-- studying so hard! He's so smart :) and Liz is still awesome. everything is still where i left it.

I'm gonna be home this weekend fom sunday to tuesday. :)

ashree @ 2005-09-22T14:28:00

2005-09-22T18:51:04Z

hey i'm sitting in english. looking up billy collins-- good poet

life's good.

94% on my psychology exam :)

marching band is... ok. I survive through it by talking with JR and making faces at John.

The Core (a.k.a. the class of death: integrated religion, phylosophy, and history....CARAZY amounts of reading and essay writting) Exam was today!

Question one:
"Neo-Platonists used books six and seven of Plato’s Republic to reason out the middle section of a stairway to heaven. Use examples from either mathematics or geometry to explain why knowledge represents more than what the five senses perceive of physical objects. In other words what is the argument for forms? Supply the reasoning for why a higher sort of knowledge must exist. Also explain why Plato claims that physical objects are just copies of these forms or ideals."

Question 3:
"What can we learn about Christian life and experience in Corinth in the 50’s Ad/CE from Paul’s letters to the Corinthians (1 Corinthians)? How does Paul’s letter address at least THREE specific instances of THREE of the five components (5 C’s) of religion? Be sure that your response makes extensive use of 1 Corinthians"

and there were 4 more like that.

shoot me in the face

life

2005-09-15T16:09:41Z

life is good. college is good. I have an exam tomorrow in psychology-- my first exam O.O
i'm studying for it now-- well in a minute

lets see life in a nut shell here goes:
Friends:
~Me and Liz *my picture* my roommate-- we ARE the same person....most of the time :) She is awesome and we have a blast togeher. We have the same Core class so we pret
~Brian & Pat: Our buddies from downstairs on the boys floor. they rock and are kick ass hillarious.
~Shelly/JR/John: My buds in band. shely and jr live up the hill so i only see them in marching band. and Creekpaum *john* is a junior on the darkside, his the same major and we chat it up a lot
~Ryan & Ragavan: The other two baritones in SWE *not marching* their seniors and adorible! *were getting chinesse tonight :)*
~Kevin!!!!: Muah! I love him...... not much else to say. he lives about 2 minutes walk that way and life is good. we both stress over school work and then destress with eachother.

school:
its school
...

:)

ashree @ 2005-09-07T13:11:00

2005-09-07T17:22:49Z

BLAH!!!!!
I just got chewed out by my band director! I miss B and G.
I dropped my black socks on the way to a parade and somehow They got a picture of me jumping *one of our cadences* and yu can tell i'm not wearing socks. APPARENTLY I "made a fool of him!" WTF!!!! It pisses me off cause Anderson's marching band was soooo way more hardcore and we friggin cared about eachother and I miss it so much! This marching band at times feels so not worth working for. But I just bite my lip and work as hard as possible even if only about 20 out of the 140 are even trying!>.< He started lecturing me and I had just asked if I could miss ONE homegame for a wedding. ONE friggin home game I've been to everything else and people in my section have just not even showed up! And he just ripped into me. He made my cry!>.< And Then while i was practicing *I went to a practice room and just played to de-stress...better then punching him in the face i thought* He had the nerve to pop in and be like "sounds good, I havent ever heard you alone... Sounds really good." Well you know what??? i dont care what you think!!!!!

I dont think i would be so upset if everything hadnt been going like this. I'm stressing out a lot about different things. And kevs not doing so well either. I mean we're fine *in fact we're wonderful* but school has him uberly stressed.....making me uberly stressed on top of my already slightly stressed outness. Its NOT his fault at all though. Its less stressful now that i'm here had I been back in cinci and he had bee having a hard time it would be worse. But here he can talk to me about it and its much better i'm glad he talks to me about it.

BUT I"M PISSED!!!!! Tonight at this damn rehersal, i'm gonna just snap-- i know it. I'm just gonna chuck my marching baritone across the field and quit. Screw this shit! I would rather be apart of something where there was respect for eachother and passion for what we are doing. This is a load of bull

UD

2005-09-02T16:45:58Z

Ah, all is well here

I've got a nice rutein going. The work load is a little lighter, but i'm still busy as hell.

I love my room and roomate. Liz and I just chill here in the evenings doing homework *we have the same classes* and getting dinner and hangig here with MaryKate and Brian (our New Yorker :D) Then late evening i go visit Kev-- mmmm it so nice.
I actually call my room home. It is my home, here. I'm always like "I gotta go home and finish my work." I get weird looks caus they think i man cinci.

which i'm visiting this sunday. :) I'm happy to come home for a little bit, but my room is so cozy here. I have my Starrynight poster and my Led Zep poster and my Holy Grail poster and my cork board with everyone on it and my fridge and Liz's TV and DVD player and my Laptop and Liz's Posters everywhere too and our awesome giant lamp and our awesome carpet and my desk with all my books and Our printer that still isnt up and running and all our snack foods and our bean bags.
you guys should all come and visit. it is a nice little place.

Classes are good. I got my first quiz back 18/20 :) 90% is good with me right now considering how much work it has been. plus everyone says grades are lower first semester here then any other time. so i'm getting in the groove.

I miss all the kid qat home though. but its more that i want them to come here and meet all my new buds and love them all as much as i do. :)

College

2005-08-23T15:14:27Z

Alright major update!

I love UD, I've been here over a week now *marching band and two days of classes* what a week.

I've met sooo many awesome people.
the band kids: JR, Shelly, Kevin, Brain, Ryan. And a bunch of upper classmen that are nice to me. like john (who hurt himself playing trumpet) haha i'm his little freshman. Mike-- who tried t hit on me while drunk but reliezed I had a BF so now he is off gallavanting with other random women.

My other group of buds is my roomie, LIZ. She is soooooo awesome. swear we have so much in common...its weiiiird. I cant believe how many times a day we say "no way... ME TOO!" Her friends Grace and Marykate are so nice too. and Liz met this boy, Brian, at mass and he chils with us too. till like 3 in the morning...haha :) I love them! I cant beleive how fast we all become so close.

Kevin-- I LOVE HIM! hehehe his roomies are hillarious. I swear i go over there for my evening intertainment and airconditioning. and of course my kevin fix...mmm...not that way geez. I cant wait for this weekend.

man i love colege
oh yeah classes are good too
except books are friggin expensive!

I miss everyone at home-- but i'll be home soon for midterm break.

the end of summer

2005-08-08T13:58:19Z

Most of you still have a couple weeks left of summer-- i think me and Holly Maz are the only ones leaving THIS early for school. I leave friday to move in-- 5 days.
summer has been crazy good.
i'm gonna miss it extremely.
i've been sick the past 4 or so days. stomach virus er something, which sucked considering that was my last weekend. :(
I still havent seen any of my Patty-o!! :`( and i havent gotten to hangout with carrie hardly at all :(
i'm just sad ingeneral. I'm excited to live alone and go to band camp again and meet new peple... but i already did that once this summer! haha Europe was like band camp for me. and a ton of new people.
Today i'm going shopping for last minute everything! and prolly spending the day organizing and packing everything. Tonight i'm chillin' for the last time with the Band grills (girls) Laurel linds and erin. were doing b-dubs and slumber party.
I'm so nervous.
this was the summer of change and-- i'm not even to the biggest change of the summer.
*sigh*

ashree @ 2005-07-28T10:21:00

2005-07-28T14:50:50Z

I leave for school in less then 15 days. wow that bites!

I do get to move in nice and early because i'm doing marching band and we have camp the week and a half before school actually starts. so that'll be cool-- but i'm slightly FRAKING OUT!

since it has been FOREVER since I updated...i'll give you some lowdown.

Summer has consisted of three things. 1. Work 2. Europe and 3. friends
1. work-- AHHHHHHHH, scallywag is great and all but I'm not making enough money. Europe drained my bank account and it seems i'll will never have money for the rest of my life. Also I've been doing some summer work for school-- alcoholEDU and a paper for humanities and the like.

2. Europe--.... I can't even describe in words the awesomeness of that trip. I miss it so much. listed from favorite to least favorite here are the countries we visited and most we played concerts in. Swizterland, Germany, England, France, Italy, Leichtenstien/Austria. My top three are really close to eachother. But swizterland takes the cake with a goregeous mountain veiw every morning, polka-ing and fondu in the afternoons, and saranaiding and "goodnight kissies"(silly kisses on both cheeks-- like the french!) in the evening. The group of friends I hungout with, the awesome 8, I miss so much. the anderson 5, caitlin myers, nic campos, kevin brown, chas wheaton, and I plus our two girlies from toledo, katie and jodi (I miss those girls!) and last but not least brad from mason (not to far from here..."the 30 minute drive is relaxing"- he says.) We all blended together great.
The first couple days i spent with jet lag, migrains, and a really nasty attitude. frankly I didnt want to be there. But after 3-5 days of "the ashley we dont speak of" (caitlin dubbed it) I found myself again. In swizterland suddenyl my headaches were gone and I felt completly restored. It was crazy! I hadnt felt that good in months. I was laughing constently with my new friends and my head never felt better. The rest of the trip was amazing. I miss it so much-- Our last night in Rothenburg, Germany was very depressing. we had our big social and party and the the long drawn out walk back to all our rooms with "goodnight kissies" all around. I was very upset that night to leave it all behind. I had to suddenly go back home leave all my new friends and the refreshed ashley I knew would probably die away before the week was even out. I teared up a little. The ride home was fun though. 9 hours of me and brad swopping music and keeping eachother awake with "paper rock scissors," or raspberry chocolate....the airport when i had to leave was really hard. I wanted to bring katie and jodi home with me-- I knew they would be the hardest to see being 4 hours away. But we all promised when we get settled in college we would invite eachother up for sibs weekend.

Friends: I havent seen much of a lot of people. Ive been trying to just go with the flow. I get to see my kevin-hunnybunny (hehe...sorry) when he's not working. which is often enough to keep us both happy :) It'll be nice going to college together. The old band gang-- welll its so weird that I still see them all quiet often. 4 years later and were all still eating at b-dubs. haha the girls have gotten a little more....friendly with eachother? hehe i'm just teasing you guys. I havent seen Burns!!! OR hancock!!! what the helll??? where are my davids!? I miss those boys-- but i have a feeling they are having a wonderful summer...even if it's with out me :( I hardly have seen patty which makes me extra sad too. mainly since I got back from europe I've seen Kevin, the band gang, and I've gotten together with Brad some too-- even if the drive is 30 minutes.

summer is coming to a close for me-- 15 days incounting and I have a report to write, a book to finish, and money to earn. what a crazy last 15 days.

ashree @ 2005-06-09T09:47:00

2005-06-09T13:54:29Z

Do You Realize - that you have the most beautiful face
Do You Realize - we're floating in space -
Do You Realize - that happiness makes you cry
Do You Realize - that everyone you know someday will die

And instead of saying all of your goodbyes - let them know
You realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round

good song
Happiness does make you cry.

ashree @ 2005-05-17T06:39:00

2005-05-17T10:44:27Z

ok I havent done this in awhile
QUICKY UPDATE!

Prom...was....amazing!!!!! Merely because i love my date to the full extent of my being...but you know having a great dinner, awesome friends, and a limo may have helped.
i'll ellaborate more later if i find time
or maybe i'll just tell any of you college kiddies in person. YOU BEST CALL ME SOON! ALL OF YOU!

life is coming at me fast!
I've beeen so busy with work and after school stuff--- school is a piece of cake nowadays. hahaha only a week and a half left ;)

I love having kevin home....I cant express it any other way... it's wonderful!

ashree @ 2005-04-30T22:21:00

2005-05-01T02:26:16Z

I'm trying to waste some time so i wont fall asleep before caitlyn calls. we are doing a sleep over before our Europe Trip meeting/rehersal tomorrow.
life hasnt changed much. still miss everyone to death!!
I took all next weekend off cause Kev, ali, and laurel are all gonna be home. It makes me happy!
Oh man i need to see kev soon. I havent seen him since spring break!!! AHHHHH thats a solid month! one more week....6 days....then he is home for the summmer!!!!!!!!! AHHHH =D
wow 10 months..... tomorrow is our 10th month. woot! go us! I love you hun!

well i'll have more to say after the meeting tomorrow i guess....or maybe i wont have anything interesting to say until next weekend. then life can be awesome again...*happy sigh*

ashree @ 2005-04-25T20:42:00

2005-04-26T00:47:43Z

hey all.
just felt obligated to update.
not much going on.
waiting for kevin to come home and for prom and for graduation. only a little further!!!
i'm so excited about prom....
i have a paper to write....and i've sat around all day not writting it....derrr!
I've had no motivation!

ashree @ 2005-04-19T20:56:00

2005-04-20T00:57:00Z

ok so the blues are wearing down a bit-- the end is insight and i'm starting to enjoy life a little bit more.
i've been working like a mofo and by the end of summer i'll hopefully have a substantial amount in my bank account. *yeah i'm a beast! I'm gonna try not to spend to much on school stuff for college...but its gonna be hard over summer... i wanna buy all kinds of awesome stuff for living on my own. but i gotta save through the years cause i'm gonna need money in the future.
school is school. hah. homework is at a minimum. Clutter still on us for the AP exam. no biggie really. physics still hates me cause of Rod's ADD but besides that classes are slowing down and without final exams i've given up in many. Coasting. coasting with my A's and B's

I got to see my kevin this past weekend which was very very nice. it was like summer in a way. we went bike riding and creeking and to parties and "watch movies" and it made me wanna be out of school so bad saturday night when i dropped him off with the feeling-- he is going to school and i'm staying here and i'm alone...again. Its like in between i fend for myself but the weekends when he's home suddenly i have some one so close to me...its like the Uber emotional mix. I think thats why i seem so blah to everyone and myself. summer will be a clean slate. Me and kev have past the test of long distance for over 10 months and we trust eachother so much because of that. i wonder if we would be the same couple if we had both been going to UD this year. I mean i'm sure we would still be together-- but i just wonder how different things would be. i'm wondering if in the future if we'll look back and think that it made us stronger?

off to bed. you know.

is it over yet!?

2005-04-05T01:05:52Z

Life is on auto-pilot.
blah.

Spring break was ok. Besides the weekends it was very boring. the first weekend was so wonderful with kevin. then the long week. the weather was nice though. the second weekend was nice-- busy, but i did see kevin. I felt bad though cause he had hurt his back :\

I cant believe we've almost made it. its been 9 months. and we are almost past the hard stuff. make it one more month and then we can see eachother as much as we want. and then college.

that's where life is. waiting. waiting to graduate, waiting for summer, waiting for college, waiting for everything.

ashree @ 2005-03-28T21:16:00

2005-03-29T02:27:18Z

spring break has been nice. unfortunatly the fun parts over. :(
I got to see kevin a lot this week and weekend. we fixed my car, we worked on his car, we bowled, we watched movies, we ate out, we in general had a really nice weekend.
now he's back at school. Burns is in Florida. Everybody else taking college visits.
and it doesnt matter cause me and carrie are playing mom and dad while mom is on vacation and dad works. so we cant stay out past midnight, and cant go anywhere till 3p.m. when dad gets home from work.
and this weather is killing me.
i'm going to bed.
maybe sleep will help.

ashree @ 2005-03-15T18:35:00

2005-03-15T23:51:13Z

Well, things are getting a lot better for me.
I got to see kevin this weekend and that was wonderful. I cant wait for next year!
I'm getting closer to a couple of my friends lately. Unfortunatly through hard times for DB. but inspite of all the crap he is going through right now with life it's nice to have those nights of talking again. I really hope things get better for him.
speaking of talking *thats a little redundent* I started talking with Ian Bond. we've been friends for awhile but not friends that you'd talk about serious stuff. well we have been emailing eachother and stuff and he needed a ride home so on the way home we took a detore and grabbed some drinks at UDF and hungout and talked. It was really nice. We have the same veiws on stuff so we just talk and talk and get eachothers oppinions on stuff. So I have a new friend hahaha....well he's an old friend, so a better friend of an old friend maybe?
I'm going tonight with patty to see Big River. Its a musical with sign language it looks like it'll be pretty cool.
Mr. Skiles is "making" me do a senior 1 act. Igoe says i should use my Medea script I wrote for clutter. I dont know though a lot of the humor is in the stage directions. Eh we'll see.
It'd be kinda weird getting back into the drama scene the last thing senior year.
I got a prom dress... its pretty and light green and curly and pretty :) I cant wait for prom....its a while away but it'll still be awesome! Kevin will be here and he'll look all handsom (like always) and maybe Burns'll take patty (haha neither one of them know i'm planning that but...they should go-- 2 of my my best friends and me and my kevin (:-*) and we go on a double date to prom.....yippy!

Me and kevin had a stressful yet enlightening talk the other night. It was very good. It really put me back on track i know where i want to be-- i'm making it there slowly and i kinda had lost sight of that. I love him so much :)

ashree @ 2005-03-10T20:32:00

2005-03-11T01:35:14Z

not in the mood to update but i better
i did a good job on my solo.
i've been good lately. school work school work
the usual
that is my life now untill i get to college

i have seen many people lately. I get to see kev on saturday thank the lord
i've been talking with a couple kids like patty and Ian but i just dont have much time to be a very good friend :(

can senior year just be over?

ashree @ 2005-03-02T16:05:00

2005-03-02T21:11:42Z

peachy
my birthday has been and gone.
i'm 18, good times
I worked and went to school. I got a cake at work and a digi camera :)
it was all very nice.
i'm not sure whats wrong with me lately-- but I think I should prolly spend some thinking time. you know those times.
I kick Mat B. today.....it made me feel better

I was reading old enteries-- memory lane is wacked out.....it goes back to freshman year-- WEIRD!
i've changed and i'm not sure if for the better or for worse but i've changed so i guess i should just go with the flow.

I miss the college kids. I miss my happier-naiive-self sometimes.

hmmm